Another Year Wiser

I vividly remember when I was 16 thinking about how my life was going to look when I was older... (to 25 and BEYOND!) At 16, I thought that by my age now, I would have been finished with college, thinner (read: waif sized), and well on my way to starting a family... As 27 looms a mere 1 and a half hours away, I can't help but think how I've disappointed myself.

It's not that I'm not happy with some of the things that I have accomplished in these past 11 years... it's just that I wish that I had accomplished more. I'm sad because I have not seized the day. There has been a major lack of carpe diem in this Unemployed Diva's life.

I realize now that I have spent most of my life living in fear.

• Fear of disappointing people. 
• Fear of others' judgement and criticism.
• Fear of failing. 
• Fear of losing people. 
• Fear of stepping outside of my comfort zone. 
• Fear of saying how I really feel. 
• Fear of letting people in. 
• Fear of being too much or the complete opposite of not enough.

And that's just the stuff that I'm willing to talk about on the internet (haha!). Isn't it crazy to think about how much we let fear stand in our way??

As children, fear wasn't really an option... We plowed through life jubilant and carefree. We took risks and made mistakes, and that was ok, because tomorrow was a new adventure. Tomorrow! Was another opportunity to try again.

Over this next year, instead of acting more like a grown up, I'm going to try and act more like a child. I'm going to seize the day and not let fear paralyze me. So tomorrow, on my 27th birthday, I'm going to do at least one thing that takes me out of my comfort zone to start this new year off right... I have no idea what that is now, but I'll keep you posted. :)

Perhaps I'll:

Thank you DC Skydiving Center for the photo

 

Go skydiving?!?

 

 

 

 Thank you Studios W10 for the photo

 

Take a pole dancing class?!?

 

 

 

 

  Thank you dailynews.com for the photo

 

Start training for a 10k?!?

 

Glory be! I have some decision makin' to do! 

 

Now it's time for bed before I change my mind and delete this whole post!!! 

 

Hahaha! 

 

I would never! 

 

Ok. 

 

I might.

 

But. 

 

Not today.

 

:)