Isn't it funny how one day you can wake up and just have an epiphany that will change the path that your life is on? I guess that is the very definition of epiphany - a realization that just smacks you in the forehead one day and screams at the top of its lungs, "DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!".
That's what happened about 6 weeks ago. I had a ta da moment that lead me to quit my high paying job to go back to school to become a history teacher.
Yeah.
In a perfect world, I would have stayed with my current job until I was finished with the necessary schooling requirements, but it just couldn't be done. My schedule was all over the place, and unless I wanted to get my degree from an online university, there was just no way to balance my work and home life. Don't get me wrong. Online universities are fab for some - just not me. I need the classroom experience. I love walking into learning institutions. It's addictive.
So why now??? I thought about this long and hard and this is where the epiphany comes in. Honestly, it came down to I'm almost 30, I don't have a family to support, and I have enough in my savings to make this a reality.
Am I scared?
Shitless.
Does this fall into what Tim Gunn would call a "make it or break it moment?"
Hell yeah.
Am I super excited?
You bet!
What it really came down to is that at this point in my life I can either choose to be living the life I want to lead or I can just aimlessly wander around on this planet letting other people make my decisions and only staying in my comfort zone.
It's time to get out of my comfort zone. Let's get ready to rrrrrrrrruuuuuuuuuummmmmmbbbbblllllleeeeeee!
One thing that has been completely surprising is that the people in my life have taken up two camps - Pro and Con. Some think that I am absolutely bat shit crazy for taking this leap. Others have said that they 100% support the decision to completely rearrange my life if it is something that I would enjoy more. I think this is a great metaphor for life. Some are willing to take the leap and others just squash it down inside themselves and continue the hum drum. A close family member constantly talks about past work experiences and the life that could've been. It makes me wonder that if that person had taken the leap if they would be ultimately happier considering they barely tolerate their current job and treat it more like jail sentence.
I wholeheartedly believe that you should feel a certain amount of passion, excitement, and overall sense of joy in your work and if you don't, then you are not where you should be. I am chasing that spark, and believe with every ounce of my being, that this is going to be the moment that I look back on and say, "here's where my life got on track."
Could I fail?
Absolutely
Could the nay sayers be right?
Yup
Do I care?
Not today.
If I do end up on my face as a result of this decision then so be it. At least I can always say that I tried. And isn't that what we are ultimately doing here on this planet? Trying to get where we want to go; constantly growing and evolving along the way.
So here's to this new journey and thanks for coming along with me.
Forever Yours,
The Unemployed Diva
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