Where you one of those children that as soon as your parents told you not to do something, the only thing you could think about was doing that one thing? I can't honestly say I was or not, but I do know that self control has always been something that I've struggled with.
It started with, "I should do my homework, but hanging out with friends, this tv program, or cleaning the dust off of this obscure object is so much more fun." Then it transitioned to, "I really shouldn't have dessert every night this week with dinner, but HEY! You only live once! What happens if I die tomorrow? This one piece of cake seems to be very tiny in the grand scheme of things." And now my lack of self control is sitting at an all time high (or is it low? It's whichever one you don't want it to be... haha). It's concerning my budget. Dun Dun Dun!!!
When I left my job, I sat down with my monthly bills, looked at my expenses and planned a budget. The only reason I felt comfortable with starting this whole new endeavor is that I have enough money to support myself and pay my bills all the while not having to radically change or downgrade my lifestyle to do it. That's important. But now that I've started on this process I've been spending a lot more time at home and am starting to get money stir crazy.
Everywhere I turn I see opportunities for new shoe racks, area rugs, fall decorations, new bath towels, etc! I had not a single one of these urges while I had income coming in, but now that I don't, there's a little voice inside my head that keeps saying, "BUY! BUY! BUY!" I'm pretty sure that we've all finished grade school math and have survived by knowing at least basic addition, subtraction, multiplication, and division (calculus? Screw calculus!). So you know that if I spend more than the allotted amount and buy all of these wonderful things, I'm going to be poor. Like poor, poor. Like my sidekick, Bella, is going to have to dramatically cut her bone a day habit. Cold turkey.
So why now? Is it because I'm home more? Is it out of boredom? Is it because an area rug really would bring this room together?!? All I know is that I need to find a way to curb these urges and get my uncontrolled self into a self controlled state of mind. If I don't, this whole plan goes by the wayside, and I will be back just having a job that pays the bills and my dream will be go on hold. Again.
DEEP BREATH
I
CAN
DO
IT
!
Now off to not spend money and enjoy the start of this beautiful weekend.
Forever yours,
The Unemployed Diva
P.S. The other day I made kale chips... this is how they turned out:
http://youtu.be/wbewEkC5U88
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